Working at a fish and chips shop on good friday’s always a bit of an adventure, but today all the customers were really patient and though we we had a person less than last year and a lot more orders coming in we were just straight up faster by about a third. We closed at normal closing time and all went home at the normal time, even.
Staying in one place to stop bumping into people I really badly want to catch up with.
Wanna be near people but look really terrible and projecting an aura of fatigue and death instead.
The me being sick thing that was on its way out flared up again because that’s what happens when I treat my body like shit.
Still finding it way too easy to just not sleep an entire night and also highly insecure about the invasiveness of my (virtual or real) presence. Very sure that I’ve been invasive without being aware (wrongdoing without awareness being pretty important to me because it’s wrongdoing that comes from not even considering or perceiving the needs of others) and surer still that I’ve yet to meaningfully be one to alleviate invasiveness.